Wednesday, April 23, 2014

I tried to detox and failed

I tried to detox and failed.

I reckon detox is the process, whether real or perceived of removing toxins from the body.
And these toxins are harmful substances.

So, why did I do it?
I think I was bored or simply I just wanted to see how much I'd fail- and I did so without a doubt.

My approach was to get a gut cleanse, and then after that pick on a few nimble tricks since I have come to detest the smell and taste of eggs- and can see myself becoming a strict vegetarian. I didn't know how hard it could be- because the first thing that I was to strike off my list was caffeine- and that was like choking me by asking me to quit taking coffee.

So, on day one- instead of not indulging in coffee, I had three cups instead and since then I have decided to come off it.
I'm sticking to my coffee and the eggs can go.

I'm also writing today- looking forward to some time to get working on "Choose Me" and see just how much I can get out of my comfort zone.

Have a great week.
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How can one change the world if one identifies oneself with everybody?

Tuesday, April 22, 2014

You and I

I am insane 
For writing this.

(Photo credit: Metindemiralay )

Indulge me.
I mean, you can do something meaningful with your time,
Just don't listen to me.

You and I
We are fire and ice,
Earth and wind,
Sand and storm,
Love and apathy,
Lust and non-compliance.
Soft and hard,
Mellow and rough.

Your hands,
My hands.
Together- they collide as we do.
Yet, they can't get enough of each other.

You and I,
Are like Catherine and Heathcliff.
Without one, the other is brutal,
A shadow, a pain.
Forever condemned.

So, why should we stay together?

Why should we part?

We shall not: For in you are the words,
another world, other people,
a story...one that loves to be told,
and me...well, you know me by now.
I'm the reader.

Saturday, April 19, 2014

Never Marry a Writer

I have been taking part in a Writer's Class online- that involves writers from all over the world. We have one more week to go- and I'm grateful to NanoWrimo because that's where I got my invite.

I'm also looking forward to getting a pat in the back for having blogged for a week!
Yes, haven't you noticed that I've blogged every day of this week?

So- that was part of the challenge. But, the greater one is this day's assignment where we have to take a look at how the society views Writers, and blog about something that we feel is closer to the relationship between a writer and the world as she/he knows it.

So, I picked the title "Never Marry a Writer."
First- I have to share this awesome piece of work by Julie Dillon- featured in Deviant Art


Check out her awesome works at juliedillon

Never marry a Writer- because she will take your words and turn them into words on a page. She will write them, cut them, copy them- and finally tune it into some piece that she gave life to.
Never marry a Writer, because she will have those days where she's there but gone for days, weeks and even months to a world where you cannot reach her.
She will slave for the right words, work on her never ending novel- and dream of places you can never reach.
Never marry a Writer because every word you say can and will be used for her pleasure.
You won't gossip or share the issues you have at work for she will have them in print and someone somewhere will know the source of her inspiration.
Never marry a Writer because she'll be mad at you if you get your words wrong.
Never marry a Writer because she's delved in the world of Jane Austen and knows Gone with the Wind so if you want to express your feelings- you'd better do it right, as though your joy hang on every word she accepted from you.
Never marry a Writer because when you disappoint her, she will not be mad- but she will cut you up into pieces and hand you doses of guilt with every word she writes to express her pain.
Never marry a Writer unless you are an avid reader- you've got to keep up with her imagination or at least...try.
Never marry a Writer because her disillusionment would only take her away from you and you will see her die every day and nothing you do or say will revive her, because when she writes the words flow from her soul- and when the sorrow bug attacks the soul, there's nothing you can do but always hope that she finds her way back to you.

And finally...NEVER EVER...take a Writer's word as the golden and final truth unless you know which world she's transported you to and why!

In other words...Never EVER question a Writer's motive. Understand it. That's all.

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How can one change the world if one identifies oneself with everybody?

Friday, April 18, 2014

My Prince Charming

I have met my Prince Charming so many times that writing about him feels like pulling a Swift one on him!

Never trust a Writer! We are so devious that whatever you do is like a story to us. We can make you a hero or a villain depending on our whims and at times we turn you into inanimate objects that characters can push around, step on or misuse. I'd say that doormats, combs, toothbrushes, toilet bowls, sinks, chairs...are some of my favorites.

The highest honor a writer can accord you as an inanimate object is by drafting you as a pen, paper, blank page on a computer or cup of coffee! I'd love to be drafted as a cup of coffee by some writer...it'd be forever the greatest achievement. I could slot it in my Google + profile as a bragging right.

But, I do have times when things weigh me down- and I had a sombre moment like that this morning. I was taking tea when this feeling overtook me and I couldn't shake it off. I'm a worrier- but today it was more like something was going wrong somewhere and I couldn't place it let alone prevent it. I worked on my report for my boss and emailed it to him- then checked out Deviant Art where I came across this:
Copyright: doodlewithgluegun

And, this is where my Prince Charming came through- because in his own wicked way- he just called to wish me a good day, and the first thing I asked was where he was.
"Home, why?"
"Are you okay?" I asked immediately. He laughed and I stayed silent- because if there's one thing that is lost on me is patience. I want answers there and then- and when I get mad, I don't throw tantrums. I let my anger boil and then when it's lethal-I let it erupt and spill over like molten lava!
He stopped laughing and asked me how my day was, completely ignoring my question. "I asked you a question!"
"I'm fine. I am rather hungry if you want to know and I haven't got bread from the shop."

"Okay, that's good to know."

"Are you okay? I mean...is everything okay with you?"
"I'm fine." ( Now look who's lying.)
"No, you're not. Your voice is calm, and you are doing that thing with your voice again...acting all final like this conversation should end."

"Take care love, okay."
"Sure, see you when's possible." I smiled immediately after because having a Prince Charming is like having the one best friend who sees right through you and never questions your good and bad days.

But this post was not to tell you about him, rather about what it feels like when you are down or blue and you can't explain why. Someone might think you are in a bad mood or you woke up on the wrong side of the bed- and if you are a woman- then they'd jump to PMS! But, it's not so...at times you have to sort things out.
Your feelings and opinions about things can get so mixed up that the only way to clear it out is when you are feeling blue.
So, how do you go about it?

I reckon first things first is to create some space! Be by yourself, wallow in your thoughts and let it sink in.
If you love music like I do- then listen to something, and based on how down you feel- you'll tend to pick a very down song, but listen to it and continue to wallow in your thoughts.
With time you'd come to terms with what you are feeling- and figure out how to act on it.

There's nothing wrong with being by yourself, because there's so much serenity that comes when you are one with yourself.

Happy Easter holidays!


Thursday, April 17, 2014

How do I do it?

"How do you do it? I mean, just with writing, blogging and always being on the road- how do you manage?"

Someone asked me this and I could not answer her. It was there at the tip of my tongue, but I could not say it. I shrugged and smiled- but I could not find the words to tell her.

I can write a short story of 9,000 words in a day, but cannot answer a question like that.

Having gotten over my episode, I plugged in my earphones and played out The Fray's album #Helios. I had to take a breather because my head was spinning with so many ideas and I needed to settle down- cool off.

How do you do it?

Tell me, how do you manage to pull off the things that you do?

It's not an easy question- because though you might say that you simply wake up and plan your day, well, I've come to appreciate the saying that "you plan and God laughs," so not everything would go like you planned. I love writing and reading books. I also love listening to music- and there's always the desire to achieve more than what I do on a daily basis, but that's just the hanger in my closet awaiting a designation.

Things might not always go as we've planned, and I was looking at all the mail I have sent in the past year- and was not surprised to find that 80% of them were job applications. I had graduated and needed a paying job to at least cover my bills and do give back to my mom for having supported me all through my education training time. What is interesting is half of those never responded. Of the other half, some had turned me down for being overqualified and the other few did hire me. I never did analyze my mail as I have done this morning. It just goes to show that there's always something you can do.

I also viewed my Author Profile on Smashwords and just realized that I have published 22 books since I joined in November, 7th 2011.
22 ebooks!
22 stories!
22 tales of worlds that seem far yet are always within our reach. I couldn't help but feel stumped! It's not been easy.

Even as I post this, I have come a long way to 50,718 page views and it's always great when I get to know that there's more I can do every second of this life that's granted to me. So, how do I do it?

By ceasing every opportunity.
Every day is a blank page that could either be a book or books by dusk. 

I have approached publishers and been turned down numerous times. I have also had two big publishing houses here in Kenya- use my work one without consent and the other paying only ten percent of what they offered. I have learned from them- and I'd not work with them again.

I have also come to learn that there's always a plan B,C,D,E,F,G,H,I,J,K,L,M,N,O,P,Q,R,S,T,U,V,W,X,Y,Z. What matters is how quick I am at activating them and to what end.

So, how do I do it? By making the time because I enjoy doing what I do- and it's always an opportunity for me to learn something.So, it's not about what everyone is doing but what you are doing that's making a positive difference in your life.
If the goodness doesn't flow from within you to those around you...then at some point you'll end up feeling wasted- and you'd cease the chance to have made something out of what you had.

Now, I throw it back to you: How do you do it?

Wednesday, April 16, 2014

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How can one change the world if one identifies oneself with everybody?

Tuesday, April 15, 2014

Teens for Teens- Kenya

I'm finally doing it!

Finally getting down on the ground and spreading the word about my organization. I feel so good that I had to share this with you- and forgive me, but how are you today?
How has your day been so far?
Have you been pushed to the limits?
Have you had the best day? Are you looking forward to the Easter holiday?

I am finally getting started on Teens for Teens-Kenya. As the name suggests, it's an initiative that seeks to empower teenagers to actively participate in societal development.
It will be open to members aged between 13 and 17 years old.

Why?

Well, in Kenya one is of legal age at 18 years. There are so many organizations and groups that target 18 year olds and above, but what of those who are yet to attain this privilege?

I've often heard parents, teachers and most siblings complain of certain things they see in teenagers- and this has led me to focus on them. Teens for Teens will not turn teenagers into perfect citizens or children for their parents, but it will allow them to learn positive life skills that they'll need in an ever changing world. It will not solve their issues but help them through counseling, volunteer opportunities and communication- to identify the root causes of these problems and seek solutions on their own.

It's not about fixing!

So, what or who inspired me to get this started aside from my experience working with people? I will give credit to Ann, who founded and still runs Ti-Plus , an organization in Kariobangi that empowers teenagers and especially those who are HIV Positive.

Teens for Teens is currently based in Kisumu, and we have already started with the marketing and spreading the word around town.
So:


Membership is Ksh. 500. It;s an annual fee that goes towards basic administration of the organization and while setting up this initiative- I had to consider commitment in setting up the fee.
Most people would ask, why do I have to pay to join?
Well, it's a requirement for membership and once you pay there's the entitlement that comes with it-because it's only one bit of your contribution towards the organization.

All our events will be taking place during the holidays when all the members have closed school.

So, now that this is up and about- spread the word.
If you have a sister, brother, nephew, niece, neighbor, friend or child who is aged 13- 17, and you'd want them to be part of this initiative...here are our contacts:

Blog:www.teenskenya.wordpress.com
Facebook page:www.facebook.com/teensforteenskenya
Twitter profile:www.twitter.com/t4tkenya
Email address:t4tkenya@gmail.com
Phone Number: 0719 281 216

It's been a long time coming and I'm glad that I get to do this. I have to try and give it my all, who knows...it might just be the one thing that truly makes a positive difference in someone's life.

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How can one change the world if one identifies oneself with everybody?